Dear Shaun,

I have so many thoughts swimming in my mind, I'm not sure where to begin..

I love you.

I wonder if you know how much I love you, how much you mean to me. When we met, I remember telling you that I wasn't sure I wanted a serious relationship. I wasn't sure I was ready. I'll never forget what you said, "Aren't I worth it? Aren't we worth it? Don't you want to know where this can go?" Paralyzed with fear, I agreed to be your girlfriend. I knew then that you are special, and each day has only made that confirmation deeper. I've never met anyone like you, you are simply amazing.

I find a lot of emotional baggage from the past creeps up on me; then boldly hits me and knocks all breath from my body...I wish I could make it stop. I wish there something that I could do to just make it end. It isn't fair, to either of us. Here again, I've learned what a strong and patient man you are. You deal with my trust issues and insecurities with a kindness and love I have never seen. (I am teary just thinking about it). I am confident that one day all of this will behind us and we will be stronger as a partnership for it all.

I miss you, this long distance is difficult. I wish we were together everyday. I've never cried like I do because I miss you. I need you; I need your smile, your loving gaze, your warm embrace. I miss the way you make me laugh. You are a part of me; when you are gone, I'm incomplete until you return. And still, all these words lack the intensity of how I feel. Just as you told me today, "I wish you could see inside me" -- We must be on the same page.

You are my knight in shinning armor, you know the one that all little girls dream of...I never thought you were real. I used to lie bed (in the not so distant past) and wonder if there really was anyone out there for me. Was there a man out there who was waiting for me? What would I have to offer him if I met him? (sometimes I feel so unworthy) Here you are, sweeping me up and caring for me as if I am some precious maiden. You make me feel amazing.

I want to have a baby with you. I want to be your wife. I want to have adventures with you; I want to explore what we can of this world and its offerings together. I know that together, we can accomplish anything.

I love you. I love you for all that you are. I love us.

Forever yours..